Now that the critic is quieter, I was able to ask myself: how do I feel about opening the blog back up?

I thought about how I’d feel if a family member came to my blog and read the post, Hiding Feelings. I did feel a little anxious. I’m not sure exactly why this was, but I think it has something to do with the fact that I have made it very clear, through my actions, that I do not wish to engage with them, but they’re cyber-stalking me. To open myself up to that, even in a small way, does cause some anxiety.

But then I thought about how I’d feel if somebody came to my blog through a link to one of my very heartfelt and personal posts. I felt sad, and I think the sadness came from them not being able to access the treasure that I have to offer. I mean, when most people come to a site and they have to log in to do anything, even if it’s a completely free account, they skip it unless they’re very motivated to sign up. Heck, that’s what I do all the time.

So if I have something valuable to offer people, and I hold it back because of a handful of people will feel bad… well, isn’t that being unfair to the people who will appreciate what I have to offer? Isn’t that being unfair to myself and living in reaction to my history?

So… I’ve unlocked my blog. Enjoy!

What Is Man?
Saturday “Serenade”

Our headboard did not survive the journey. It would appear that the loaders did not load it wisely nor did they buttress it properly according to the way they loaded it.

Beth’s not been very well the past few days. We’re hoping it’s just stress! The eating schedule’s been way off (eating late, eating badly), and there’s been, of course, the physical and emotional stress of moving. We have less than a carload of stuff at the old apartment still, so I’m going to take care of that tomorrow morning and will hopefully be able to get back before lunchtime.

I imagine we’ll be unpacking for a while… but that’s OK!

We are tired, but safe.

Who, sir?

I am hoping that the upstream bandwidth will improve! Right now, I have a 30kbps pipe that not only is my home Internet connection, but is also shared among all potential users of the website. So, if you have 3 people downloading a file simultaneously, you’re all very lucky if you get 10kbps each! I’m particularly looking forward to that improvement.

http://www.personalarchaeology.com/feed/

Edit – Livejournal users, I’ve put in a support request to change the feed URL. You shouldn’t need to do anything special.

Hey, I finally had $50 to throw at the problem instead of blood, sweat and tears. (Those latter things don’t mix well with computers anyway.)

After all, that is what this blog is about! To the best of my ability, combined with the help of my friends, I explore what makes me tick and share that with the world.

I realize that this isn’t everybody’s cup of tea, but so far, it has been the most rewarding adventure I have ever been on, full of thrills and chills that will last me for the rest of my life.

Perhaps even you will join me in my trek! Let us share our experiences and share in our growth together.