The whole day today (and a few days prior to this one), I have had Huey Lewis and the News’ “If This Is It” running through my head. I sang what little I knew in the truck on the way back to the rental place.

This song has come in and out of my head over the course of this relationship, when we reached that point where it almost seemed like we might possibly break up… but didn’t.

She’s in her own place now, with roommates. She very clearly doesn’t like the fact that we did break up, but she’s been telling me that she knows it’s the right thing for the both of us.

Right now, I feel happy, but there’s a bit of a catch in my throat as it’s not a happiness for something gained or won… but it’s a happiness that’s borne out of escaping from a bad situation, so there’s a sadness for time, life, and heart lost.

I know that there’s more to come… but for the time being, I am very happy to just feel happy.